Dear friends,
I must share with you the joy and immense blessing that Zachary and I have received over the past couple of weeks.
#1: Daycare - We went to tour another daycare a couple of weeks ago and left feeling, unsettled. I told Zach, no matter what daycare I visit, I'm still going to be antsy and uneasy, so we might as well just pick one and run with it. Well, later that day, I was speaking with a very sweet lady from our church who wished to watch Theodore, however we needed. Needless to say, this mamma was in tears. But she said something that I'll always remember: "God opened the door for you to take Theodore to work because he knew that you weren't ready. Now, God opened this door as the next transition for you for you to see to continually trust in Him to provide for you." I can't tell you guys how much a blessing this family is to ours. We would not have met them had we not visited this small little church on a whim and had not these ladies shown a deep love for me when things got really rough on my maternity leave. Blessed.
#2: Theodore - I put a shout out on Facebook about Theodore needing winter clothes. We were not exaggerating that he needed clothes stat and it just simply wasn't in our budget. Yes of course, we would've gone and gotten him clothes, but we were waiting for a period of extra cash. A few days later there were texts, pictures and packages on our doorstep of winter clothes for our son. Blessed.
#3: Cash Flow - As we all know, cash flow is tight right now. Zach and I are continually having to put our faith in Jesus for our foundation in our current situation. We were looking at situations in order to help make ends meet and then out of the blue, we received a couple of checks from friends who wrote and said that we were on their hearts and they had some extra cash to pass along. Blessed.
#4: Being a working mom - This is something that I am going to continue to struggle with as I find my role as a mother and as a working mom. I enjoy my job, I enjoy my son, one isn't greater than the other, they both bring their own joy. I was feeling a great deal of pressure and a dear friend called and let me cry on her shoulders for a bit about the whole situation. She said that God has a plan in place for our lives and right now this is what it looks like, and tomorrow, it could be different. I needed to hear that I wasn't a bad mom for not being able to watch him. I needed to hear that other moms struggle with this same situation. God knew that I needed this relationship and I'm blessed to have her in my life.
Now this is not to say that we aren't faced with struggles each day. There are many things in which I am trying to see why they are happening and how to glorify God in the process. But, what Zachary and I have learned thus far is to keep putting our faith where it belongs, God does provide, and He will continue to provide -- whatever that may look like.
"When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Thy consolations delight my soul' - Psalm 94:19
