Not too sure where to pick this up from - we all know the story of Theodore and how he arrived.

I'm here to write an honest conversation, in an effort to help my thoughts come together and to potentially encourage and inspire other mom's out there.

My life has been completely flipped sideways-turned around and has landed lopsided - in a completely and different place than I originally planned. I find myself completely exhausted from commuting on average 3 hours a day, working a full time job, tending to my almost 4 month old, being a wife, a mother, housekeeper and socialite.

This is coming from the long nights of being awake to feed, to provide comfort and to handle the screams of teething. This is coming from having 3 hours of sleep and having to put in a full days work the next day with a smiling face. This is coming from a mom who cooks every meal due to dietary restrictions and extreme budget limitations that are out of her control. This is coming from a family who can't simply cut "extravagant expenses" to consider living on one income, when we don't have anything extra to cut (okay, we have netflix...whoop!). This is coming from a husband who works tirelessly at two jobs to help keep the family afloat. This is coming from a mom who is saddened by the fact of putting her son in daycare and wishes to stay at home.

It's from meeting mothers at fairs who are completely exhausted and seek community, comfort, and a few words of encouragement to continue on this journey of parenthood. It's to building relationships with new moms with an unbelieveable amount of advice given at all hours of the day and night. It's through the unknown of what a few week old baby really needs when the baby itself is unsure of what is happening.

We are all tired. 

I pray for you, your family, your little one. I pray for rest, for patience, mercy and for friends and family to love and cling to you for you to not feel alone. I wish nothing more than to walk with you side by side in this wonderful journey full of extreme joys and extremely challenging moments.

Through all of this happening the past three months, my husband and I realized how much glory we must give to God and how little our lives reflected His work and His passions for us. We thought we were walking quite comfortably in our faith but have been awakened that we are broken and selfish individuals who need the grace, love, and mercy of our God and Savior. Why weren't we sharing the joy of life given to us with others - so that others might be encouraged by our walk?

We realized things need to change, and we invite each of you to pray for our family as we look at what the future holds for us. The lives we had been living, while was pleasing to God, isn't enough. He is moving in our lives, and we seek to listen to Him. He has been waiting and we have been avoiding.

Here's to a life full of joy and rest in Jesus. What a glorious day. 

"No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other." -- Matthew 6:24